Sunday, September 28, 2014

poetry (but still reality)

to: NaNa - with love from Mama

i love

that you reach for me
how you pat the spot next to you so i'll come sit down
that you want me to hold you SO much of each day
when you grab both of my hands to dance, after you turn on the leapfrog fridge tunes
that you help mama by turning the light switch off or on
the quick way you pick up a new sign, how you love to try things with your hands
how you hold and hug your new dolly
that you love to play the piano with me
how you love to get your feet rubbed
the sweet way you gaze into my eyes
your beautiful dark eyes
your precious face & your adorable, darling voice!
when you reach up and touch my face
the way you giggle when you see me coming toward you across the room
how your sweet little arms hug me tight around my neck

the way life must slow, in the special way only a toddler can invite it to

i love that i am becoming your mama
i love you are becoming my baby
i love that we are becoming...Us.
i love YOU, little girl!

hearts knit together
after time seeming an enemy
this time together: these few short weeks, these days strung together to create 
something beautiful--
time becomes an unexpected friend

--Just a quick update: we were able to get into the audiologist last week!  After a visit from the county organization that provides services to kids 0-3, one of the speech therapists made a couple of calls and got us in a month early!  NaNa did very well and they think she's probably a good candidate for a BAHA (bone anchor hearing aid). We go mid-October for the rest of our appointments, one of which will be with an otologist (ENT that specializes in ears) who will need to sign off to get us officially on the BAHA path. Then she'll get fitted for one.  In the meantime we need to figure out how to get a 21-month-old willing to keep a headband on all the time. ;)  And also our speech therapist will start coming regularly to our house to provide services, yay!  - in case you missed it here is a dose (my previous post) of our less than ideal-seeming reality.
-And now, for catching up on some pictures from the last few weeks! Including some very adorable ones with VeraNaNa & her Daddy BaBa!




i am sure the picture i'm painting is mostly the wonderful sweetness of this past few weeks, which is a true and delightful part of our process. but i would be remiss if i did not somehow acknowledge even though our new sweetie is a precious treasure, she is just a regular toddler too! encountering frustration and obstination... but more than that is probably the emotional work...toll...whatever, that makes it difficult at times, deep in the heart of little old me.

on a daily, if not hourly, basis, i am reminded that no matter who i AM spending time with or what seemingly important task i'm in the middle of, at all times, there are 3-4 other people i also need to keep track of, spend time with, catch up with, check in with, and of course the list of household and school management tasks is unending. the challenges of keeping a little mobile curious toddler in a safe and educational and most of all love-growing environment is a pretty full time job. and then there's a mound of my own clothes in my own closet that is truly prize-winning. yikes. i hate to admit it, but i have some slob genes. i have some neat and organization-minded ones too but in my closet it gets ugly quick. it's really like the layers of the inside of a tree; you can learn so much about the object of nature in question if you just look back through the layers that are there, haha.  what have i been wearing for the last 3...or 13 days....

the task lists around the house or more importantly for the school are quite long and while i know that being with my kids is the best investment of this season, there comes a point when even a person with slob genes says ENOUGH already! i cannot endure one more second with this pile of *insert word of choice* paper/clothing/toys/randomhouseholdobjects!!! sometimes it seems everywhere i look i am surrounded by reminders of all that i am not getting done...

but is being overwhelmed on a regular basis something that is new to this life-o-mine? um, no. is it really that much more chaotic than it was a few months ago? actually, no. several aspects are much calmer now that we are all home!

i am still behind in most every aspect of life yet plugging along. when i put her to bed either for nap or night time it is usually ME that falls asleep first! and any early morning catch up nonexistant. for now. feels next to impossible to get a leg up on anything, BUT i just must remember this is a season. a truly precious season. i would love it if you want to pray for me to be truly present...

anyway, there's lots of emotions and lots of logistics and lots to figure out and get used to and it's all a blessing and we are grateful but just want to be honest about the fact that it's still for-real life. ;)

Friday, September 12, 2014

four weeks

Four weeks ago today we came home with our precious little Vera!
She was not so sure about us that first day (almost 6 weeks ago) when we met.
But now she is quick to hug, quick to kiss, quick to giggle, and pretty spunky.
One of her favorite things is when we sing the Johnny Appleseed prayer. All that hand holding and enthusiasm, and loud A-mens--watching her grin & watch us (and eagerly grab our hands after making a big O over her own head) is a highlight of our day.
What a special addition she is to our family!

A quick li'l update:
She had a great doctor's appointment with our Int'l Adoption Pediatrician - who also happens to know about lots ear stuff as an adoptive parent as well!  Vera got some shots and had some blood drawn, and was NOT happy about it, reacting as any sane person would.  But she did great!  Next stop in about a month is the Audiologist and Cranio-facial Plastic Surgeon. We will find out more about her ears and hopefully get to try out a hearing aid!  Then also we'll check on her wandering ear lobe & facial asymmetry just to see what they recommend, etc.  And her kidneys will get a little peek as well- did you know that ears and kidneys get formed around the same time?  So it's good to check on one when the other is a little...creatively formed. ;)

I have just come out of a rough week of feeling pretty crummy & SICK most all.week.long.  It's much better now and thankfully no one else seems to have gotten it but if I thought I was behind before, haha!  It's ok though, right, when you have a new little person in your house you must reframe all expectations of productivity! 

We are ready to move out of this little is not exactly lonely here with five other people to run around with, poke, sing with, go to the park with, giggle with, swat at.... but it feels a little isolating at times!  We are looking forward to introducing her to more friends and family, and in the meantime we really truly do appreciate getting checked on with texts/emails/calls... ;)  Thank you!

Little NaNa is such a delight. It would be A-okay if she didn't happen to be so delightful, of course, --but our transition has been pretty good so far.  I know there will be many hard things to walk through together as the years go on.  But we are so very thankful that she seems to be getting settled in quite well at this particular moment. Here are some pics of our last couple of weeks.  Earlier this week I posted a bunch from our big event in July- if you didn't see them and you would like to, here they are.

At the end we have another little giggle video with NaNa, her brothers, and a TOAD!

Things are looking up....
we love our cousin hand-me-downs! ;)

Silly Sister pics!

Fuzzy but couldn't resist sharing Vera's sweet expression!

Gearing up for a hike

Whewf! Riding in a stroller sure can be exhausting. But someone's gotta do it.
 Closeup on the cuteness!

Sisterly Pedicure

A moment of weakness....alone with the chocolate (dr.pepper-cake) frosting leftovers. 
All gone. So. GOOD.

LOVES her very special quilt from Grandma! 
If you would like to read a little more about this special project, look here!

Enjoying the new sand in the sandbox...

 This princess is not one bit afraid to touch a cute little toad!
I just LOVE the sound of her giggle!

Monday, September 8, 2014


Hello Hello, we are still here!  Slow but sure, we are coming out of our "cocoon" stage.  
Vera is doing very well. Our doctor's appt last week went well - nothing major was done or decided, just got some shots and some blood drawn (there's a job I would NEVER want).  We will meet our Audiologist and a Craniofacial Doc in about 5 weeks and learn more.  For now, here's some pics of our event - our wonderful and talented friend Thelma took most of them and we are so grateful she shared!  We are slowly coming up for air in doing things around here - next we will share more homecoming pics, haha.  Truly though I plan to post some actual current pics, hopefully tomorrow, of our sweet girl and what we've been up to lately.  The cocooning can feel a little isolative!!?!? So we have truly appreciated your texts and emails and calls...

My sweet Aunt Laurie and Uncle Larry came to surprise us, all the way from IL!
Almost bought this "Yeah, I'm on your flight" onesie for Vera: hashtags include: 
#worldtraveler #getoverit #youwereababytoo #stressedparentonboard #itriedmybest
And now for the actual evening itself, let the memory of many acts of talent begin!

(Lip Sync contest - woohoo!)

I included six photos of the prayer with Pastor Dan --it wasn't really THAT long of a prayer, but I couldn't resist revealing the various movements of a certain sweet little six-year-old throughout... ;)

Thanks for reading, loving, encouraging!!!! :)